Eugene

Our beautiful dog Eugene has left us. One moment here alive and well and the next lifeless and alone. Kurtis found him in our backyard. We have no idea what happened or why he died so young but he did. I only had 3 years with him but he was my baby. I loved him so much. I don't even think I knew how much I loved him until now. He was a big part of this family and I want him back. When Kurtis told me what had happened I cried, and cried and cried. Kurtis held me as we sat on the floor until I was calm and he cried too. I thought it was my fault. We should have taken him to the vet, I shouldn't have put him out side, I shouldn't have yelled at him , he didn't get enough attention. The truth is it wasn't any ones fault, we are great pet owners who loved him so much and cared about him. It is just a part of life. We gave our other dog cracker to a good family about three months ago, because of a move, and that was hard too. But this is so much different, we had no time to prepare. We had no last good byes. I know people might think he was just a dog but my heart is still broken for him. He was supposed to play with my little boy. He was supposed to be here longer and I am going to miss him.

Eugene...

...loved to play with the broom

...pounced on the light a laser made

...loved taking walks

...hated bikes

...played with Kurtis on our bed in the morning

...loved Riley Mills, he would follow her around non stop when she was here

...was a super hero with Christian

Bubbles

BUBBLES ARE FUN!!

chase them

love them

pop them

run from them

eat them

Midnight Snack

Kurtis and I took the kids last week. They feel asleep at Papa's house. We thought it was perfect timing, they would be asleep in the car and then we would just carry them to bed when we got home. Oh were we wrong. They were both wide awake when we got home with no chance of going back to sleep soon . So we put a movie on for them. They both sat in the chair and watched, Lynk joined too.
We put veah to bed first and she cried for 30 minutes. We couldn't listen to her cry any longer it was to sad. Yes I know we are softies. When we took her out of the crib we sent Christian to bed we told him that he had to close his eyes and try to go to sleep. Vaeh got to come in our bed. We thought she would sleep but she was singing and talking and playing with her baby. This was at about midnight. I realized it has been hours since dinner and maybe she was hungry. So she got a midnight snack of fishes and bananas. As she was eating we both herd a noise coming from the room so I went in to check on Christian and he was peeling the paint of our walls. He said he was bored. We asked them both if they wanted to come in our bed.Of course they did. Christian and Kurtis stayed up and talked about the pretend air planes stuff that were flying on our ceiling. Vaeh and I just hung out with her baby. At one I told them they had to stop talking and try to go to sleep. I think they feel asleep at one thirty. Christian and I woke up first and we ate donuts and watched jungle book. Kurtis and Veah were asleep until eleven.
Christian had to wake up Kurtis and

I had to wake Vaeh. We had such a fun day . We played at Riley's which could have gone better. The girls weren't into sharing anything. We also went to the park which was really fun. Veah loves to swing. Christian did everything. They both took a nap. Then they got to take a really long bath. Christian drew on the wall with soap. Kurtis came home early and took the kids and Eugene for a walk. Then we all went to small group. Christian really loved it. He had a lot of fun playing with Harley. Vaeh and Riley made another attempt at friendship but it didn't work. They will be friends by may. I was sad to take them back.On the way home I asked Kurtis if he still wanted three kids or more and he says yes as long as they are all boys. I say yes too boys and girls though.

All the fun!

They are here. my sister has been living in Japan for a year now and we haven't seen them since they left. Well, they came home last week and they are going to be here for two months. It's only been a week and we have already had so much fun.
Christian is so excited. He gets to play with all of us and he is loving it. Vaeh is the sweetest little girl, and she is so cute. She left when she was six months old so we are just getting to know her now. She loves babies. She could hold Lynk all day long. She is already a little mommy holding her baby and cleaning up after Christian and herself. I can tell Mallorie is so glad to be back. She now has family to hang our with and to help her. I just wonder when she is going to get tired of us. She has a few friends in Japan but there is nothing like your family.

When Lynk was born love filled us up like we had never experienced before. I love him so much more then anyone in the world. I guess I just didn't realize until I saw Christian and Veah that the love is very similar and close. I love both of them the same way I love Lynk. It was a little overwhelming in a good way.

I cried only a couple of times. Christian and I have had a special bond since he was born and when I saw that it was still there and he knew it, it made me cry just a little. Mallorie is such an amazing mother. She plays with them and laughs with them. She holds them, and hugs them. They are great kids and she is doing a really good job.

I am so excited and happy that we get to spend some time with them!

Life is Good

I have my dream job.

We might have enough money with out me working. it's looking more toward yes we will.

Kurtis has his dream job.

We have a healthy, beautiful, fun, perfect little boy who sleeps through the night.

We have a stable place to live. with neighbors we know, and hang out with.

My sister and her kids are coming to visit for two months.

My mom is coming for a week.

Whitney is not only a great sister but a great best friend who loves to come over and just sit here with

me while I feed and hold Lynk, well she holds him too. She also lets me take a shower and takes care of the

baby. We talk for ever and laugh at nothing.

Lynk's grandparents love him. like crazy good love.

Eugene started eating again.

Our car is working well.

We have a great group, with in our church, of support.

Kurtis and I are very much in love.

Mostly life is good because our baby smiles at us.

This morning Kurtis got up to change Lynk and bring him out to me to feed him. Kurtis laid him in bed and I said hey Lynk. Lynk turned his head really fast looked at me and smiled. I started to talk to him and he smiled more. He started moving his hands and feet while smiling and he looked excited. It might have been hunger but I am going to go with excitement to hear mamas voice.

Four Weeks Old

Our little boy is four weeks old already. He is so cute, still looks like daddy. He sleeps five or six hours at night (which is great). He is smiling at us. He also just started to move his head to look at us and his eyes will follow us as we walk by. He loves bath time. He really likes it when his whole body is under water. Bed time stories are a big hit too. We read Guess how much I love you, goodnight moon, and Kurtis reads the Bible to us at the last feeding of the day. He sleeps in the crib really well. We love our little man and can't wait to see what he does next week.